Lessons Learned
In The
Classroom Of A Yeller
My
previous blog article reflected on the gift of a gentle tone, a peaceful
classroom, and the calmness, contentedness, and security students feel when
wrapped in the comfort of this. I learned a different lesson early on in
school. 1965-1966. First Grade. A big
year for reading and learning, as they all should be. Unfortunately, my
first grade teacher was a yeller and her perpetually frustration-laced, roarish
voice filled our classroom with fear rather than sweet wonder and encouragement.
Regardless of one’s tender years, one quickly learns the survival strategies of
not making eye contact and not rocking the boat, so as to be able to
inconspicuously fly under the classroom teacher’s radar and avoid being at the
receiving end of her verbal attacks. It’s pretty tough to be “bad” in first
grade as little ones long to love and please their teachers. Can’t
imagine the exponential increase in volume and in anger had we been
naughty. We were not naughty. We were, however, terrified, and when you
are afraid, it is extremely difficult, perhaps even impossible, to learn. Fear
has no place in a classroom, because it’s unfair and it’s paralyzing as it
squeezes the life, the joy, and the hope out of a classroom leaving nothing but
cold walls and clock hands that don’t move fast enough. I survived. I
learned to read. At home where I was not afraid. At home where I was encouraged
and smiled at. At home where no one yelled at me. I wonder how my first grade
classmates did? I played school at home. My best friend and I took turns being
the teacher. We were never like her. The lesson she taught, which has been
indelibly etched into my heart, is how not to be. I am sorry for her because
she missed the joy, the opportunity, the brilliance, the wonder, the miracles
that are forever happening in a classroom of discovery and delight. I
have been a teacher for thirty years, and now in pseudo-retirement, a
substitute teacher. Each class, each day, each year is new and exciting and
fresh and full of limitless possibility. A classroom full of children
represents the hope for the future, and to have the privilege of serving in
this way and tending to this great treasure is exhilarating. Teaching. It bears
a weight of responsibility such as no other. Precious children, uniquely
gifted, wired, inspired, filled with wonder and dreams and infinite potential
to touch, change and serve this world as no one else can; these are the
treasures entrusted to our care eight hours a day, five days a week, nine
months a year, every year throughout their most formative years. With clay feet
and great weakness, I stand before each class, each day in full knowledge of my
inadequacy. What have I to give them but love, encouragement, and the best of
what I have and am. I am honored and humbled and thankful to be a teacher.
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